Thursday, May 22, 2008

A mental rest

I think everyone should have one every once in awhile. You really never realize how stressed you are until you are able to step back for a moment and look at your life outside of it. Rarely do you get a chance though. One of the rare occasions that you can I think is when changing jobs Yeah if you were there long enough it's emotional and all that but if not it's a rare opportunity for a brief flit of freedom. Especially if you have another job lined up after it. Therein lies the freedom part. You are no longer beholden to the old job and know you've got another lined up and wow, a brief glimpse of stability without responsibility. Damn have I been stressed since September of '06. You all do me a favor and the next time I mention that I'm relying on anything at all from my mother write me a comment, all 3 of you who read my site, and tell me just how stupid an idea that is. I don't care if it's just her picking up the kid from school. That woman should never be let in my life again, she is nothing but a psychotic freak from hell that causes stress, pain, and more stress on my family. She will no longer be allowed unattended visits into my family life. I am now going to keep an eye out for a replacement mom. My mil is great and all but that's not what I'm talking about. Oprah (yeah go ahead, make fun of me quoting Oprah) did a little thing I read on CNN about how you shouldn't be bitter about your mother's short comings but instead pick other women in your life to replace that hole in your existence. I like the idea and there are plenty of wonderful women out there who are fabulous to be around. Granted, most of them are either my dh's good friends or maybe just one of the many women he's slept with (oh am I going to catch flak for that one) but still, it's better than looking for something in my own mom that just doesn't exist. Did I just go off on a tangent then? Sorry, I am my last week of work and my brain has no intention of staying on track.

2 comments:

Kimberly said...

wow girl!! sounds like we need to do lunch or something so you can vent!! or maybe I should get you a punching bag for your birthday and we can tape a big ol' picture of your mom on it and you can go to town!!!

deckert said...

Oh the mother issues...I am right there with you and does it suck!! I've done the same thing of let me try and have a relationship with her only to have it bite me in the ass (you know this). You've done the right thing for both you and your family. I am always here for you babe!!